Weird-ness

I'm weird. Like, incredibly weird. And I'm starting to have the feeling that everyone else is too.

I had this sleep-deprived, delusional conversation with a friend the other day, you know, the ones that  only happen when you can't remember what you ate earlier that day because you've been up for far too long thinking far too many thoughts, and you're not quite sure if you're speaking out loud or in your head. So I confided in her something weird that I did. And she laughed, agreed that it was bizarre, but then told me some weird things she's done.

Okay, so I realize I'm being vague and making it sound like something sketchy is going down, so maybe I should more properly define "weird" in this context. I don't mean weird as in creepy or slightly psychotic behavior, or any abnormal habit. More so in the sense of doing something strange and that doesn't really make any sense to others, or to yourself. For example, the weird deed I am referring to specifically in this example, is when I was walking down the rather long hallway in my building to my room, and I really just wanted to be in my room already, so I sprinted the rest of the way. It was completely unnecessary since  I wasn't in a rush or anything, I just logistically thought it through in my brain that it didn't make any sense for me not to run to my room. I was capable of running, and no one was in the hallway, so boom, I did it. Kind of bizarre, right?

It's easy to see weirdness in yourself, because you're with yourself all the time, and inside your head, and observing everything you do, think and say. So it's practically impossible to believe that there is nothing weird about you. So sometimes I do really weird things, and I recognize that what I'm doing is beyond bizarre, but that doesn't stop me from doing it.

And everyone does weird things. Sometimes you catch people doing weird things, which can be highly entertaining, but who's to know if what you deem to be weird is weird to them, or if that's just what they do typically. My friend responded to my "weird" story with her own, and it's kind of interesting to think about this out of body decision making moments we have on occasion.  I don't have any solution or analysis for why we do these things, but its just a inconsequential thing I like to think about from time to time, and know that everyone, no matter how cool, calm and collected that might seem, does irrational, slightly bizarre, and just straight up weird things.

Michaela Bethune